soft & beautiful is my BFF!!!

As I'm getting older, I'm feeling less attractive...I don't take the time to do my hair & makeup anymore or dress nice or anything...I was looking in mirror yesterday & I didn't like what I saw...I didn't look like me anymore...I'm not sure if that makes any sense to anyone, but it does to me...I came across some old pictures of me and I wanted to cry...even at my heaviest, I still cared about how I looked...I'm not saying that I'm drop dead gorgeous but I was a fairly attractive woman...now, I feel like a frumpy broad!  I pull my hair back in a bun, throw on a tshirt, jeans & flip flops & call it a day!  I have a bag full of M.A.C. makeup that I hardly wear & my closet now consists of black pants, shirts & that's it (work uniforms)...So, last night I went & took my last $10 & bought a relaxer...It's amazing what a little box of perm can do for a woman's self-esteem!!! LOL...First thing this morning, I opened up that box & got started!!!  Once I was done, I felt like a million dollars!  I need to get my ends trimmed (DESPERATELY) but all in all, I loved how it turned out!  I looked in the mirror & smiled! a REAL smile!  Then I decided that today, I was going to wear some makeup so I grabbed my makeup bag & hooked myself up...nothing too spectacular because I was going to work (I'm in an office all by myself and I am rarely seen...LOL)...but damnit I feel great!!!  When I was on my way to work today, I was getting all kinds of compliments from both men & women!  I know it sounds conceited, but it felt GREAT!!!!  Like I said, it's amazing what a box of perm can do for your self-esteem!!! With all that's been going on in my life lately I really needed a pick-me-up and surprisingly, this was it! LOL!!!